To all the lost wanderers. Including myself.

Hey guys! I know I haven't been updating for almost a year now due to juggling my final project and going through my internship. But I'm back now! I've actually been pretty free ever since July this year but I never took the initiative to blog again. Until today that is.

As a fresh grad, I felt relieved that I've survived the hectic 2 and a half years. It was far from normal and was a whole lot more dramatic than expected, but I truly learnt way more from what I opt for and grown maturely as a person. Somehow when all of it ended, I start to kinda miss the college life I had. Back in college, I just had to stick my class schedule and sit in lectures. Everything was easy and all I had to do was just given to me like that. With that all over, I'm now left with "What to do now?" I guess we as humans are too used to being comfortable doing the same things on a daily basis, suddenly when everything's gone and with nothing new to cope to, we get lost.

Finding myself. That's what I've been asking myself to do everyday as a float through these few months just like that. Okay, I wasn't literally doing nothing the past few months, instead I was pretty much distracting myself from facing the music. I bet a lot of you in your early 20's probably went through the same phase I am going through right now - not knowing what lies ahead and feeling scared about taking chances. I always play it safe and strive for perfection which perhaps only led me here, but could I have gone further? That is what I wonder. Having to take the first step and trying something new is not something I'm used to. K you can call me a scaredy cat but when it has to do with a huge part of your future I can't just close one eye and do it. I have to think about all the possibilities and examine from A-Z. I guess my weakness is I tend to overthink things sometimes.

The other day I was scrolling through my Facebook news feeds and saw someone share this article featuring the best of HIMYM quotes. I'm a huge fan of HIMYM and  watched every episode of the 9 seasons possibly at least once *or even twice* Anyway, I stumbled across some great quotes.

#1

"If you're not scared, you're not taking a chance. And if you're not taking a chance, then what the hell are you doing?"

Seriously, if you're not taking a chance, then what the hell are you doing? I've always played things safe according to my plans and always knew what was the end result. But I'll always wonder "what if?". What if I did it differently, took things to a different route from the usual, would the outcome be better? I guess I gotta keep reminding myself that and not regret from all the "what if's"

#2

"That's life, you know, we never end up where you thought you wanted to be."

Again, as someone who plans my everyday, I always expect to know how an outcome would be like. However sometimes life doesn't go as planned and we might not end up where we thought we wanted to be. We all get scared about the unknown because we don't know what lies ahead. But hey, think about it this way, where's the fun if you knew all the little surprises in life?

#3

"Sometimes you have to experience the lows because it helps you give new perspectives on life and sometimes the right perspective makes all the difference."

Okay, this quote isn't from HIMYM but WongFu gives great advice too! Anyway, so even if life gives you some unexpected "surprises", embrace them, delve into them, learn from them and become a better you from them. Everyone is afraid to fail, no one wants to fall but you can always get up when you do. We all don't just know how to ride a bike on day one right?

Okay, last thing if you still ain't motivated. Here's a speech by Philip from WongFu to let you guys know you're not alone.